Bl@ck Polk@ Dots

2011-02-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

my blog is so dead. you should not come and visit it anymore. am suppose to upload a picture or two but my line is so ridiciously slow right now!!

anyways,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! =)

31 days.

2011-01-25T21:22:00.003+08:00

your away for a month. i missing you so much. when i thought i could at least chat with you,you couldn't. the thing i hate about you being far from me. texting back would be so expensive. it would be selfish to keep wanting you to text back. but i understand. and you cant always call back. though it might be cheap but its not nice. i just miss you so much. tonight im just sad not being to chat with you.

2010-12-19T21:10:00.001+08:00

i'll not complain this time. i'm just gonna sit there and let it be. =(

MIA

2010-12-01T21:21:00.003+08:00

i think im already dying in this house. everyday seems to be a routine.
wake up -> help around the house -> afternoon nap -> jog -> dinner -> tv -> sleep.
im definitely missing in action now that bao is not around. i shall be in my cave until im needed. i can already hear the bored bells ringing in my ears instead of the chrismas bells. hmph. i think having a boyfriend makes boredom seems less boring. LOL. cause there will be more eating,more you-know and more fun. but not to say my life was boring all these while before i was with him. oh no no. i had another life back then where i was adapted with everything. where i used to hang out with MORE than one person? LOL. this might sounds pathetic but now im just looking forward to hang out with just one guy. one guy is enough to make me happy the whole day. love can be insane but trust me it change everything. =)

and i cant wait to pack and go KL. at least away from here for awhile. shopping!! i gotta make sure i shop smart or not im just gonna come back with rubbish. and i swear im gonna chop of my head if i did.

december.

2010-11-19T20:53:00.004+08:00

finals are over!! i know i work hard enough,hoping i'll make it through this sem.

december. whoa. time passes so fast. baby will be leaving on the 1st. i will be going to kl on the 9th. sigh. i AM looking forward to shop for the things i want. like finally!! but i'm gonna miss him. i hope it won't be hard like how it was the first time. i won't lie,the first few months with him i was really strong. but now i'm scare sometimes cause i know i will always need him and i depend too much on him. i thought being really attached is good. as in,you see him all the time, you learn more about him each day and the love grow too. but being away from each other makes it so hard to live. this is sad. now typing all these,makes me really sad. i miss him already. i miss him all the time. and i just got 11 more days to text with him,see him,hold him. =(

i know your reading this. i know you will be missing me too. i love you bee.

bao bee.

2010-11-11T09:05:00.003+08:00

i have not seen or touch you for days. it just doesn't feel right. i'm missing you terribly. this is just terrible when your close yet so far. and having finals to think about,it's torturing. i miss you.

i'm dying. finals are next week.

2010-11-10T16:59:00.006+08:00

the things i see in people's blog are always so nice and interesting to read but how come i can't do the same for mine. i think i don't have that "gift" to blog like some people. it would be nice to have a funny blog and have alot of reader coming by to just read it. it's not that their life are so happening and mine is not. i just don't know how to put the things that happened into words and the fact is,i'm a really bad story teller. probably because i'm limited with vocab. and i got no other words to use beside the one i always use. duh~but as far as i know i will never reach there. i'm probably the most humble person on earth right now. and if you believe that,your dumb. i guess the reason why ppl also blog is to let others know what they have in their mind. sometimes its easier to say it in words than saying it out from the mouth. and ppl like me tend to be more emotional whenever there's something to be said. even before i say anything,i'm already in tears. and that's so irritating to some ppl cause all they want is to know what is happening and all they get is cries and tears. i won't blame them if they feel like giving me a slap on the face cause i know i would probably want to do the same.

boy. this is like the longest post i ever had for awhile now. once i start talking,i won't stop. trying meeting me in person. i bet i would scare the shit out of you. but i'm not all that bad. if you want me to stay quiet,try meeting me when i'm sad. i'll still scare the shit ouf of you. ask my boyfriend. he know best. he is probably the only reader i have right now. like wtf. sad right?!
i tell you ar!! you better study,don't keep stalking me. i fight with you,i won't give face one. xD

before i forget,i just got my internal marks for two units. both are fairly high. but i still need to struggle. i don't want to mess up this semester. i screwed the last one,i'm not gonna screw this one. if i do,i'm gonna screw myself i swear!!!

so i think that's pretty much all i wanna post today. no pictures though. cause the camera is in someone's car and i bet it's still there. sitting under the sun. poor camera.

more from me soon. xx

i stand corrected. this is not the longest post. xDD

2010-11-05T09:09:00.002+08:00

do you remember this? january 24th. it's still hanging in my room. and you asked why i wouldn't take it down.

week 11 on academic calender.

2010-10-28T11:41:00.003+08:00

25-10-2010

i realize i got a weak tummy. everytime I'm nervous about something,i just HAVE to visit the toilet. and trust me,its not a good scene. i end up fighting and struggling in that tiny room. i got lab test tmr and i got tummy pain now. =( fml.

mum is coming back home tmr. and pete is coming over on sunday! i love this week so much!

have you forgotten the date?

2010-10-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

once in awhile,we all miss taking pictures of ourselves. the last time i cam whore for a bit was prolly last month. i hope it doesn't mean i'm getting older to be vain. being vain sometimes make us girls feel pretty. and if the pictures turn out really good,we stare at it for awhile. i sometimes wish i look as good as my pictures. do i or do i not? that's something a person won't ever tell you whenever you ask them.

ten ten ten. worst date ever!!

2010-10-12T20:05:00.003+08:00

Well,hello again!!

Semester is about to end. Another four more weeks to finals i think. i don't want to see bao flying off. so sad. what am i going to do without bao around? =(

and i'm tired. everytime i get home from campus,i got no energy left in me. and i have to try to study. i'm trying to stay awake now. And oh!! I got a presentation next week. i'm scare. i'm never good at presentating. how am i going to aces this? i get stage fright all the time. how do i overcome stage fright? boohoo. i don't know how.

just another short update. another post with no pictures.

dying blog.

There's so much i wish i could do

2010-09-28T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hi again.

The bad thing about using iPod is, you can't use it to blog. It just won't let me. I tried. Failed.

So.....

Something that i never thought of but instead assuming or accusing. Never i did thought about the stuff you did for me. The way you cared or the things you said to your friends when i'm not around. I cried. But i cry with joy. I wouldn't have realized it if it wasn't for Job. Now i know that, your worth it so much more.

And yes!! my assignment is nearly done. I'm just left with a few more words than i'm free again!!

I feel so dumb. ="(

2010-09-28T11:54:00.000+08:00

booyah! i'm back.

2010-09-26T15:08:00.003+08:00

gosh. i been neglecting this blog way too long. i bet there's no one reading it anymore. LOL. oh well! i guess that's what happen when your bored with nothing.

i won't say there's nothing happening. there's so many things happening! but i just don't take pictures of them all. i have not cam whore for a long time too. i miss it. and i'm lazy to take the camera out. and plus,i think my camera is not as good as it used to be. old already ba~

so. last friday was my first ever anniversary with someone. bao is the longest guy i been with. and i'm so proud of it. i don't know why my past relationship never last. but i'm keeping this one. so you girls out there better not put your fingers into it. or i'm gonna chop both your balls off. LOL!!

nothing special really happen. typical date. and thats all. maybe cause every time we are together it's like our anniversary where it's just me and him. it's actually nice being with someone who makes you comfortable to be with.

there's something about him that makes me happy. and sometimes i don't know what. prolly because we are both dumb crazy. but of course when there is something good. there's something bad. whenever i'm sad,he starts acting like a 5 year old!! sometimes i wanna slap him and get over it. LOL. but it's not all bad. i know all he wants is to make me as happy as possible. i'm happy. i'm happy you been with me and putting up all the shit i made for you.

and there are also times i get all sad and moody for no reason. that's the time i need you most.

hey. i'm not suppose to get all emo here. okay. back to the topic. i guess i'm will doing well this sem? i really hope so. i been studying and not neglecting. but will see how it ends for me. xDD

and yes!! i want this converse shoe so bad. love at the first sight. i want it but i got to save up first. =( my polka dots shoe is all wore out already. and i feel so sad about it. that's one of my favourite and i wear it all the time. gotta find somewhere good and nice to bury it. LOL.

okay la. i think i said enough.

and this. bao's mummy gave the dress. i'll save it for some special day. and it's long.

hello my alien friends.

2010-09-06T08:34:00.002+08:00

something different than my usual pony tail. it been years since i tried this. the last time was prolly back in high school. but honestly,i got no confident!! help!! i got pores all over. =( wish i had the perfect skin. so i wouldn't need to hide under my hair. HAHAHA!!

i was comel but i'm cute now. xDD

2010-08-31T12:52:00.003+08:00

i got this from my cousin. =)

look!! i was so small and i wasn't fat back then. but look at me now. *pouts*

something not related.

have you ever feel so pissed cause that person knows you and told her friend not tell you who she is? wtf people. thats so childish! i don't see any point not telling me. and it's pissing me off. its like when your still a kid and you had a fight with you friend and you say "i don't want to friend you anymore!!". it feels like that now. arrg!! girls can be so annoying.

call me crazy

2010-08-29T13:24:00.001+08:00

i was going through ppl's wedding photographs. and i feel like getting married this instance!! it feels happy.

it's make up free day! i was too lazy to dress up for them. LOL.

2010-08-29T10:26:00.003+08:00

the girls came by and play with me. okay~ that sounds childish. but yes!! i'm actually that childish. ever since i dated. i think i have changed or maybe not. maybe i'm always like this but only thinking i'm not. complicated. fine fine,don't bother putting it into pieces for me. my boyfriend thinks i should grow up. despite being older than him.

when i said "do funny faces",it DOESN'T only apply to me!! they make me look stupid la.

Cynthia. one of the oldest and longest friend i still keep in touch with. we been friends since babies. we basically seen each other growing up. *tears up* wtf. touching or not? try thinking how many close childhood friends you still got?

Huey ching. cynthia and tanya introduced her to me few years back. the only time we hang out is when tanya and cynthia are back.

tanya. this is the FIRST time i see her with make up on. she used to be the type that goes "nah~ i don't need make up. i'm pretty just the way i am".

my weekends are gonna kill me soon. prolly not today but maybe tmr. my assignment is moving like a snail!!!

i'm sad.

2010-08-23T22:24:00.003+08:00

if only you knew what i felt or what i was going thru. if only you knew.

it's been awhile since the last emo post. i'm lost. i guess the person i only rely on now,is just myself.

oh no!

2010-08-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

turtle turn! hope the driver is safe. and also the passenger(s) if there is.

24 months peeps!

2010-08-21T09:50:00.002+08:00

for the past few weeks,i been waking up to this. all the banging and drilling. D=

and i didn't realize i been having this blog up for two years already!! time really pass fast.

2010-08-20T20:25:00.001+08:00

i feel like shiet!

not in the mood to say hi

2010-08-18T19:33:00.002+08:00

i'll try to blog as much as i can with pictures.

now that my hair is growing longer,i don't feel as pretty? cause my hair is heavy and it goes flat? yes,it's all with a question mark. i don't know if long hair suits me. but i miss my shoulder hair length. it's time to change!! i been having short hair for two years already!! i look at myself at this picture,and it reminds me of octupus. boyfriend and i haven't been taking much pictures together. the thing is,when we do take, its alot. and when we don't,it's competely nothing.

i'm tired now. my eyes are heavy. i'm going to bed really soon after i'm doing. i probably would say the same thing after a couple of hours. i hate assignments!! i hate it more when it's group and your all alone!!

I'm older now.

2010-08-15T20:19:00.001+08:00

Thank you for the huge birthday cake!!

i'm back!

2010-08-15T19:30:00.003+08:00

Yeah! i'm back people. after a month. i'm so sorry!! i feel so bad not blogging at all,i'm thinking if i should put down my blog. dilemma people!! it holds so much memories tho. how?

i been busy with uni. stuff. friends. family. boyfriend. everything!! but i got nothing to update on. T____T

So. I got this from Phebe. This is an A.W.E.S.O.M.E stuff. if you have blisters on your lips,this is the miracle you MUST have. when i get bad blisters,i cant even sleep. it burns so bad but i know hell is worse.

i'm not good with the camera. i don't know why it won't focus on my lips for me. see how bad my blister is. it's been like that for three days already. and it hurts like crazy.

See how long my hair is now!! its so long. i want to trim it to shoulder length but i want to keep it long. so not cutting it. let it grow long and thick.

cause i'm thinking of you right this moment.

2010-07-30T13:05:00.001+08:00

i'm hungry. and i want my spiderman.

2010-07-28T12:15:00.002+08:00

Hello all.

after a week from nothing,i still got nothing. well actually,there is something but i got no pictures of it and it's mostly all routine activities. met up with old friends,and we all look older now. and so much more catching up to do.

before i forget,classes are starting next week. and i'm feeling or failing sick again. either one. i have lose count the number of times i gotten sick this year. i broke my own record. i'm no longer healthy like i used to. and i actually fainted last week. i don't know why. i don't think it's because i'm lack of sleep. i get plenty of rest in fact. i get into bed at 7-ish right after dinner. and fall to sleep at 9-ish. wakes up every morning at 5-ish. it has turned into a stupid routine!!

but anyways,it's lunch time now. i'm feeling all sick again. so i'll stop right here for now.

will be back soon. i promise!!

i read my email from him,and it sadden my heart.

2010-07-19T12:48:00.006+08:00

do you even bother to know how it feels being abandon? okay,maybe abandon isn't the word. but being left alone sucks!

nothing related. next week will be the end of my training program. then it's school again. don't think i'm doing it at the end of the year. earning at a minimum amount. at least now i got a bit more to spend. i haven't gone out from my house for ages. it's just the same routine everyday. and i spend all my sundays at home. nothing. that's why there's just nothing to blog about. i have not been vain also. cause i don't dress up much. no one to show. the people in my office don't bother,so why should i? okay! that's definitely a lie. i dressed up to work sometimes. but that's only like once a week.

so anyways,July is about to end. time passes so darn fast.

2010-07-12T21:02:00.001+08:00

it's open to public again!!

clearing it all up!!

2010-07-12T19:27:00.002+08:00

hello there. before i forget,i'm thinking of reopening my blog. i'm now cleaning up things posted up here,to prevent any sort of rubbish that might or might not occur. there's no reasons,i just feel like it.

so anyways,i'm doing fine. results are out tmr. darn it. i dont want the day to come. sad. =(
okay. i shall not think about it tonight. i'm gonna take a good night rest. and dress up pretty tmr. and yes!! i got myself new lens. i really hope,really really hope i don't get eyes infection again. it hurts and it was a bad experience.

pepey!! this is pepey. sister bought it from kuching,so this is practically her dog. this dog very spoiled. always get treats.

this is pepey again. so very short. but so adorably cute!!

my blog is going public again.

2010-07-07T15:58:00.004+08:00

i'm not good in doing that censoring thingy. and those sticker paste aren't so nice also. what to do?

boyfriend is sick. *pouts* means no lunch with him. *double pouts* but he came by with buns and drink. i'm full again. i'm happy but i'm angry. sick people should be in bed like sick people, am i right? anyways,boyfriend got my favorite but it wasn't so nice. poor people shouldnt be so picky. tsk tsk. have to remind myself that like many times a day. and everyone is saying i'm fatter now. how???!! and boyfriend's aunty thought i'm a foo chow girl cause apparently foo chow people are big in size. is that a bad thing?

the price ticket came out. it's 1.60rm. >_< soya milk!

i love my work place. it's fun to be there. i'll only be there for another few more weeks then it's back to classes again. i just don't like to wake up so early. 6 days in a week i get up at 5a.m to get myself ready and by the time i reach home in the evening. i sleep before nine.

all fat people around the world.

2010-07-07T09:32:00.004+08:00

its 930 a.m, i'm bored. and i'm eating. i'm gaining weight again. *pouts* i only get to sweat the fats out once a week. and that's really not a lot. i'm about to reach obesity. i feel out of shape.

Uhhhhh la laaaaa.

i feel like that. soon gonna be like that. and my boyfriend thinks it's cute. T___T

but.. if my baby look like this!! OMLG. so cute. until my cheek bum turn red. cute but unhealthy.

and this is another funny one. what if this happens to me??!!
Okay it's not funny anymore,

duck vs seafood

2010-07-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

i been catching up quite a number of movies this year. i have never watched so much in my entire life. like zomg! don't you love bimbos'? the last movie i watched was toys story and i rate it 8/10. we had the whole cinema to ourselves. cause we booked the whole place! so not. we just happen to be the luckiest couple and with another stranger to have bought the only tickets. so there were only three people. but it's still cool.

okay. where am i again? alright!! i'm suppose to blog about how good the duck is. it's the best i ever had. though you know people are always judging and comparing. but i don't care. cause it finally made me happy and i'm truly am. and have you seen a duck with three legs? or a duck with a lot of feathers. or how about a duck who loves its feathers so much,it bites when you try plucking it? like the story about the duck that lays golden eggs. are you feeling lost? cause if you are,that's the whole point. what i'm trying to conclude is,i love the duck and i love having pork,chicken and fish too.

my face is recovering and it's so much better now!

2010-07-05T19:31:00.003+08:00

starting off with myself and definitely ending it with myself too. i have not been updating much due to procrastinating all the time. it has already been a habit. and i hate getting silent readers. they come,they read and they leave. please buzz me,so at least i know there are people following all-so-emo posts. i know i'm not a good blogger nor do i blog about interesting stuff. and not to mention 99.99% of my post are shiets.

But anyways,i been staying at home pretty much all the time besides going to the work place. i'm now continuing my training at the same place for a month. that's one of the place that makes me smile and be bubbly. people there are so much fun to be with. and the boyfriend would come to join lunch with me whenever he has the time. and from thursday onward he shall be going off to places without me. this would be the first time in months that we would be apart.

and of course!! how do you like my new pink wayfarer. i haven't wore it out yet. i don't have the guts. cause it's so pink! i should have gotten another colour. pictures are just so deceiving and i'm always falling for it.

i'm blogging cause i'm in the mood to blog? but there isn't much pictures besides mine. so probably the next time i'm here to show you something aside from just seeing me.

i guess that's all for this post.

p/s: please do buzz me so i know i do have readers. =)

I'm sick again,and that's not a surprise.

2010-06-12T16:42:00.003+08:00

IQBAL ADAM BIN SALLIH. You got a dusty mirror,and i got prove.

I haven't been into the cam whoring mood for a long time. Okay,maybe for a few weeks. Or a month. I don't remember. And yesterday was cam whoring using the boyfriend's camera,and it loves me!! I'm saying this,cause I'm always have bad time with it. Lousy camera. wtf.

We just finish our business in bed. WTF. He's just topless,and i look topless too. But I'm not. Wanna believe it or not,up to you.

Btw,my finals starts this Tuesday. And it starts with the toughest unit this sem. FINANCE,i hate you but i got no choice. Life is just never fair,isn't it?

I look so fat la here.

2010-06-12T16:39:00.003+08:00

I never post up any pictures of my prom dress. It looks nice here. But during that night,i look bad. I hate the hair!!

I been missing. But i'm not dead.... yet.

2010-06-12T15:51:00.005+08:00

This is just gonna be a short update on what happened last weekend. It was Ye Sze's Wedding day. We attended the wedding dinner. Food was not bad. Pictures not much. Boyfriend and i wore chinese attire. I can hardly find nice dresses. *pouts*

Not gonna pictures much. And i look rather plain. The rest of the girls on my table had their hair done in the saloon. And i had mine done in my own toilet. T___T

Dear Eve,this is a picture dedicated to you by my dearest boyfriend.

Okay,i'm done. =)

i want to cry in your arms.

2010-05-27T23:21:00.003+08:00

i miss you so much. i'm missing you. and i'm sad. i need you. i just want you to know,i love you.

Sorry for the late updates

2010-05-21T10:56:00.003+08:00

Finally I'm updating! I been as sick as a cow for almost a week. I have not recovered but I'm feeling so much more better than how i was when it first started. I had high fever,then only got to know that i got food poisoning too. No wonder i had "liquids" coming out at both sides. And when i was about to get well from it,i caught a flu and with a slight cough. I'm taking meds hoping i get well by tomorrow.

IT'S PROM TOMORROW.

I'm so excited. I can't wait to update. I have got the perfect dress,prefect clutch,prefect heels which btw is only one inch,and most of all,i got the perfect date!! We gonna look great together right? =) And Boyfriend has gotten his coat and slack. I'm still thinking of what hair style i should do. Boyfriend and i will be going to the saloon together to get our hair done. Will definitely put my hair up but i don't think its long enough. And i got this really cute black earrings!! I know i hardly wear hanging dangling kind of earrings. So it's gonna be something tomorrow. And boyfriend never seen me in dress,only the time i tried the dress on. Why do i sound like a boy in disguise? Its comfortable being simple. But i still love to look pretty all the time.

Anyways.I got three test up next week and I'm not prepared on any of them. I got to score well for one of my accounting unit cause i screwed my mid sem like shiet. I hate it when everyone is copying except me. May God bless me.

I'm still having low confident in myself.

2010-05-11T21:09:00.005+08:00

Its Tuesday. I want the day to pass faster!!
Anyways,i had a short walk to Yvette's place from campus. Use bus first la,of course. She was busy with her assignment so i play a bit with her canon. Its not as easy as i thought. You can't see the image appearing on the screen. Only after you snap a picture,then the picture comes out. So i had many tries and only three are nice! That's how ugly i am.

I feel ugly. I don't know why. I feel sad. Would you like or love someone for his or her looks?

We waiting for the bus back to campus. But there wasn't any. And fortunately,Felicia Kong passed by and stop. Yay!! Free ride. Else we would have to wait for another hour just for a bus. I would rather walk,really.

Then the boyfriend brought me to the beach. At 4 in the afternoon. So damn hot. But i like cause i said i wanted to go the beach. Isn't the view lovely?

The sea was calm. The sky was blue. The sun is shining and everything seems perfect. Yet something was still wrong. Guess where all these pictures were taken from?

IN THE CAR!!

p/s : Roxane,i been so lazy that i keep forgetting to take pictures of the stuff. =(

I hate exams!!

2010-05-08T17:29:00.003+08:00

I had my accounting mid term today. And let me tell you how bad it went!
@#$#%^&$!@#
Not fair. The people in front had answers with them. And i looked at them feeling so sad. I'm gonna screw that 30%. And i wore wrong matching shoe! How on earth can you wear a blouse,black jeans and a white shoe?? I should have wore sandals or heels. When you get all messed up with exams,you don't even think right when it comes to colour matching. Pfff~
So i had a bad morning. Then i had lunch with the boyfriend. And he told me sausages are made from chicken intestines,eyes and everything in a chicken. He made me threw my sausages away. D= I'm not going to eat sausages anymore. I would have had a decent nice lunch if he didn't come and tell me all those. Eve,don't eat sausages anymore. Very disgusting leh. =X

Just so you know,i been going around without any make up on!! I got so used to it,I'm loving the new look. Just go plain and look clean. Because today is Saturday,Eve decided to go without make up too. Just wear sunny,no one will know what's beneath it. xD

Its all bout dogs.

2010-05-08T17:24:00.002+08:00

Gorden.

Pepey and Candy. Candy is new at our place. Gotten her for almost two months now.

We got three lovely pure breed dogs. Mind you,they don't stink. xD

Get this for someone who loves bananas.

2010-05-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

Now lemme introduce you my night time sleeping partner. Pockets.

I just feel like blogging out dated pictures first.

2010-05-08T16:51:00.002+08:00

A picture of Eve and I standing behind boyfriend's mini yellow moke. I should have wore my sunny instead. Eyes went from small to there's-no-eyes-at-all. Hmph.

Don't let the picture deceive you. The sad part is,I haven't gotten any slimmer. I gotta lose some body fats off. But i can't get rid of that temptation that always makes me wanna munch on something. That's just so bad. I blame it on you!! The boyfriend la. Say i eat too much. Then brings me to places to get my favourite food. Now i believe what people say. When your in a relationship,you actually eat more than what you have when your single. I don't want to eat and get fat but i don't want to be single and grow old alone. xD How?? Break up with food??

Joyce. I got this "thing" for people's name especially those which starts with J. I tend to call them wrongly. If their name is Joanne,i call them joyce. And vice versa. Sometimes i get so embarrass, i hope they never actually heard me calling them with wrong names.

Joan!! She perm the top part of her hair,and now i think it looks so much like a bird nest.

Did you know human are actually taller in the morning compare to the day time?

2010-05-04T22:17:00.003+08:00

Outfit for the day. Boyfriend and i wore the same kind of the top and wayfarers. Hearts. Won't you stop and stare at us if we walk passed you? Our wayfarers kill every path we walked. Boomzz* I'm glad I'm dating this bully. Though he bullies me all the time,there are times he treats me like a princess. When i say princess,it doesn't mean carrying my bags,my books or my water bottle. Princess as in,he would do almost anything just to see me or be with me. He is not the type of guy who would express himself physically nor he is a romantic kind of person. I would say I'm the one doing more romantic stuff than him. I guess its true when people say everyone is different and special in their own way. He has his own way in telling me stuff.

I'm not perfect. So is he. But we try to make things perfect. It is hard. We don't think alike nor do we have the exact same culture. That's why everyday we are still learning.

Did you know guys thinking are just so different. When they get all emo and upset,they don't tell you. They just keep it in,and make you question yourself about it. And girls. When they get all down,all they do is cry and make a fuss out of it. And the guys come along and pampered them all day long. Don't you love being a girl?

I want more wayfarers please.

2010-05-03T22:01:00.001+08:00

I couldn't update earlier cause i was drunk dead the day after.

2010-05-03T20:54:00.007+08:00

Like i said i would update with pictures,and i did!! Had to use some force power to get hold onto the camera.

I love the over-sized tee!! Mum got it for me from Bangkok. But it got this really strong smell.

He said we both very "pei" cause we are big. Does big actually mean fat?? I haven't been going jogging for a week now. And i can feel the fats accumulating.

The last time i had bbq here,there was no lights at all. Now there's a roof to cover our heads and lights!!

The food as usual are awesome!! The lamb and all. Mmhmm.

Big birthday boy!!

I had vege,salad and fruits. xDD Jokes. I know i had more meat than greens. And i forgot to enjoy the fruits or the cake cause i was so drunk that i just wanted to sleep.

While they enjoy their lamb with spoon and fork.

Milk boy so happy.

Phebe said don't post,but i still post. Don't care her la. xDD

No need to say already know. Boyfriend had the biggest piece of lamb.

...

This is another unrelated post. Boyfriend and i got our wayfarers today. And i love it so much!! I'm out hunting for more. After class,we went to look for the supplier's house. And head back to the boyfriend's place to get my notes copied.

Boyfriend never say no being my driver. =)

Look at his hair!! So flat!! HAHAHAHAHA!! Look like a coconut.

This is better.

There's gonna be a lot of food tonight =)

2010-04-30T17:42:00.003+08:00

I'm now blogging at the boyfriend's place. Having bbq tonight!! *rubs tummy* I will try to take a few pictures. Relying on the boyfriend for that. I'm currently wearing and looking like a pregnant girl. But i love it!!

You got a problem with my boyfriend's age?

2010-04-23T20:14:00.005+08:00

I'm sick of people making dramas.

Here's a 1o rm note for you,go get a life!!
You asked me what a friend i am? Lick my arse. Never like me from the start? HA!! As if i was ever fond of you at all.
Me hitting on your guy? For God's sake. I never gave your guy a second look.
Stop what i'm doing? You said you got proof?? READ IT AGAIN!! You don't understand english is it? Or want me to read them slowly to you?
I'm breaking up your strong relationship?? oOo
I think your stupid?? Did you ever hear if out from my mouth?

And YES your stupid since you bought it up!! How can there be something when your guy is in UK and me over here? Use your brain la,for your parent's sake. You make me puke. You make everyone puke.

Short update ahead.

2010-04-21T07:28:00.003+08:00

Been rather busy,tired,lazy but at the same time having fun in the real world.

That's about it i think.

ONE more thing. I'm going prom next month! The boyfriend and i went dress hunting last weekend. And we found one perfect black dress. I'm loving it so much,and I'm not showing anyone. Cause i wanna "BOOMS" everyone. And the dress fits! Its about a month away. Lets hope and pray i don't get any weight till then. Gotta lose some fats off also. Jog,Melanie Jog!!

Baby,can we shorten the time to 7 years instead of 10?

2010-04-15T20:14:00.004+08:00

Next week will be our seventh month together. Throughout this time,we have been going thru quite a bit together. From sour moments to sweet ones. The more time we spend together,the more we learned bout each other. Our relationship may not be perfect but its the best i ever had. To some,seven months is still a short period. It is actually but if you can stay happy for that period of time,isn't that a good thing?

Have you ever stop and wonder what would you be doing now if we weren't together from the start? Who would be dating us? Would we be happier? My questions are never ending. If you knew me any better, sometimes i wish my mouth and mind can just shut down for at least a day then i don't have to think about any shiet. Its so darn stressful,to think all the time.

Boyfriend and i always find something stupid to do. I used to be good in art but not practising it for years has now turned me into a noob.

The boyfriend drew cute cartoons on mine,and i drew a long house with a chimney on his. And two adorable penguin-wanna-be with doreamon pocket with flower design on it. I think I'm very creative. True okay? Would you even think about a long house with chimney?? Tsk tsk.

And he wrote my chinese name. Till now,i still don't take the time to go memorize how my name is being written. I kinda feel useless. A chinese girl that doesn't speak Mandarin at all.

I chat with the boyfriend's mummy but only for awhile.

2010-04-11T21:07:00.005+08:00

My internet connection probably has a fever. The line has cutting non stop. Is it me or is it everyone else in Miri having the same problem?

My week free is about to end in less than two hours!! Why does it feel like my holiday just started yesterday? I haven't been studying nor do anything smart for the whole two weeks. I been procrastinate everything single thing!! Lazy much. I'm a pig, a big fat one. Huhu. I didn't mention here that i have been jogging lately. And i feel slimmer just by a bit. Better than nothing la,okay? At least now i don't feel guilty when i eat ice cream with the boyfriend. Ice cream makes my world go round and round. And so does chocolate. I been going thru alot of sugar high moments where when i chat with people,i get super active and i start to laugh even if its not funny. Okay,that's not the point. The point is i love sweet stuff and i can never get enough of them.

Do you know the feeling when you thought someone would tell you everything but at the end,it doesn't really happen that way? Doesn't it sucks? I'm not pointing fingers to anyone. I just don't like it when i feel that way. If your the people I'm close with,you would know i would tell everything and anything if and only if i trust you. But just don't step on my tail,you won't like it.

This post goes to Sarah,Ivanna,Evelyn.

2010-04-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

Am i blogging too much or everyone is blogging less? I want to read not blog posts. So update your blog often please. =)

I wanna punch you till your teeth falls!!

2010-04-07T20:42:00.003+08:00

Got vain with the boyfriend's phone. So i been busy going here and there and done nothing productive. I need to get my arse to study. Like seriously. I'm gonna be a dead cow if i don't start now.

Things were kinda out of hand a few days back when i got to know that a friend has been poking his nose into all my business. We used to be so close. And this is not the first time. I'm just disappointed with the things that had happened. I wish it didn't. I wish we were still close like last time. Things just changed as time passes by. Two fucked up years and haven't you got over it and just be happy? Guys are so hard to understand some times. I wish i could smack your head and ask you to get a life. But I'm too nice to do that,so i will just pretend you don't exist till you change!!

I been eating and i feel so fat.

2010-04-05T12:27:00.004+08:00

We (the boyfriend's mum,the boyfriend,ann ann and i) baked a cake yesterday. I did the washing. Ann ann separate the egg white and yolk. Aunty mixed the mixture. Boyfriend? He did the eating. Okay la,he did little of everything. He was suppose to get newspapers but we didn't need it already by the time he got back. And i was suppose to bring my camera and take a few pictures but i was too lazy and now i regret not taking it along. Bugger. My blog seems boring without pictures. And its only right to be vain if i think I'm looking good enough. Agree?

My hair hasn't been treating me very nice lately. I don't like my hair. And i want it long,so i can do something different with it. I'm just being random. I been on this chair for a few long hours and I can't seem to keep my assignment going. Its moving slowly and its due in less than 2 weeks time. And not to forget,there's three test next week. Accounting aren't the problem. I'm just worried about finance. I can't afford not to do well. I must do well!! And the lecturer doesn't like me so much. I don't like her too.

I been wasting my first week of holiday. Now i got to struggle this week for everything. Lets hope everything goes as plan.

Worse thing like this isn't that bad.

2010-04-02T23:27:00.002+08:00

My mum just killed my bed.

Sweet Sixteen only happens once in a life time.

2010-04-02T22:47:00.005+08:00

Kwan celebrated his sweet sixteen. First time meeting the boyfriend's mum. Didn't get to talk to her much though because she was busy entertaining the adults. There will be a next time.

Say hello to this baby. Its so pretty. And it makes me high and happy. Too much of a good stuff is bad for you!!

We had the bbq outside. The weather was perfect. It was windy and i had my hair tied up so my hair wasn't messy. Satisfied.

This place is gonna be a cafe,i think. Just right beside the boyfriend's house. It looks nice and cosy. And i heard there's gonna be a stage for performances. I should really get paid for advertising. LOL. Jokes.

Mosquitoes kills. I hate mosquitoes!!

Wen Chuan. A year younger than me,prolly that's why i enjoy his company. Sometimes age can make a difference.

"Seriously,the shit isn't with me". I love you Iqbal Adam.

The only picture of myself. Apparently an ugly one too. I'm not into blogging anything interesting tonight other that celebrating Ikhwan's birthday. I had fun. Ikhwan and Izaan are fun people. Boys will always be boys.

I just torned my lens. How sad can my life be?

2010-03-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

Baby's current wall paper. I love myself,just so you know. This is so long ago,when i was slightly slimmer. Now I'm king kong. Haiz. And I miss my hair this length,its all shorter and thinner and i want it bushy again. I am so shy behind my new hair. Been tying up buns. Reasons? The boyfriend likes it. Second,i had a bad hair day,so might as well put it all up. And I honestly think i look rounder. Why is everyone so nice and telling me I don't look round? I got mirror okay?? *jokes*

Haiz. I look so cute. I mean back then la. Now look more like king kong.

Yes,people. This is Mr King Kong. He told me today he lose 2 kilos. T____T I eat less,smile also more,but only gotten rid of one miserable kilo. You say fair or not?? Haha. I'm joking. xDD I'm so happy you lose weight. We lose together,alright? But me lose more la. xDD

Bad week this week,good week next week.

2010-03-26T10:25:00.004+08:00

Life hasn't been treating me so well this whole week. Some people just can't keep their hands to themselves. But you know those kind of people will never leave you to peace. Lets leave that aside.

Parents are back tonight. Meaning no more spaghetti.

Been having those for a week!! And that's enough to turn me off. No more no more no more.

I'm feeling lazy to blog now. So till then.

For a little sister.

2010-03-22T00:21:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you know something is not gonna be the same again but you try avoiding it from happening. In the end,it still happen. I tried not to ruin our friendship. I tried to be there. I know I'm not the same ever since the new year began. I will still be there. Life sucks when things like this happen over again. I don't want to be like the others. I won't let you walk alone,and that is what i promise. I might not be doing the best right now. I might not be the one who talks to you all the time or spend time with you like we used to. But we will always be friends no matter what happens. You helped me thru my hard times,i won't forget. In fact,I'm grateful that you came into my life. I'm happy to be able to understand and be close with you for a year and still going. If i ever change into someone one day,I want you to know your never forgotten.

I kissed another boy last night.

2010-03-21T14:01:00.003+08:00

So i got a new template!! *pokes bubble* Simple and no dots. And its Grey for once. I'm bored and I'm lazy. I need to work out but the weather is so tempting. I'm fat. I'm fatter. And I'm about to be the fattest.

#409

2010-03-21T11:05:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend got me Ice blended Mocha from Coffee Bean and i drank it all in cafeteria. The boyfriend has been feeding me extremely well and lately i been losing my appetite. Bring me out,and I'll just order a drink. I been craving for sweet stuff. Fruit sweet stuff.

Anyways,this is Mary. Its been a couple of years since i known her. We used to be close at one point but that was because she and Chung Wei are Kim's housemates. After that,we hardly hang out anymore. We walk on our own path now,living our own life. This might sound selfish but isn't that what the world is?

Sunday. There's nothing to do. Nothing to eat. And i can't go out. Sundays are just boring.

So I had a Quarter Pounder at Mc'D for dinner last night. No pickles,only onion and extra cheese. Boyfriend had taught me how to be picky with my food. He is the one who usually get picky with everything. But I kinda like how my burger was last night. I'm never fond of cucumbers. I usually pick them and leave them aside. And I had curly fries. I still prefer french fries. Been having fast food twice this week. I miss home cooked food. The only home cooked food at home now is mummy's spaghetti. We got another 7 meals of spaghetti left.

We been hanging out so much this semester. Three units,three tutorial all with her. I'll never be bored. We have the same motive, we'll put our heads together and get all those smiles.

#408

2010-03-20T21:47:00.004+08:00

I got my hair cut this late afternoon cause my hands was terribly itchy and i couldn't wait for my appointment with Kelvin tomorrow. I look rather the same in the pictures. I just trimmed it. I planned to keep my hair long this year. Its a little thin and the fringe is a little short. But I think it will grow after a week or two.

So I went to a new place today. Louis's saloon. Its not bad actually but its too costly for me. And I just gotten a trim and not a new hair do. I look the same but with just a much shorter hair.

Size view. I always set my hair like this. I know,its getting boring already.

I know a few people who just got their hair cut too. I'm so excited. We are gonna be new people in campus. On the other hand,i might give a try tying my hair this Monday.

#407

2010-03-20T15:21:00.003+08:00

So I'm loving my spec now more than the boyfriend.

#406

2010-03-19T05:40:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend just got his hair cut and its so short that he looks so kiddie. I look more like a big sister now walking beside him holding his hands. And he thinks its awesome. N.O.T !! And i wanna cut my hair too. I feel like a lion,hair so thick. Was suppose to have my hair cut with the boyfriend too but i wasn't in the mood. So while he had his hair washed,i went to look for dresses. I found two gorgeous dresses. Tried on them. Unfortunately for a girl like me that has big bone,i couldn't zip up the dress when it reaches my chest. Not that i have big boobs but my bone chest are like king kong's. Was so disappointed. We are going to Parkson again later,and the boyfriend asked me to try it again for him. I guess he's gonna force the zip. If it does,i want the dress!!!

Old update

2010-03-03T20:00:00.005+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog. I lost the mojo.

#401

2010-02-21T02:24:00.002+08:00

Been blogging so much that my posts has reached 401.

My horoscope for the year.
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo's problem is everyone's problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long term relationship. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

#400

2010-02-17T12:33:00.002+08:00

Not updating doesn't mean I'm busy with the New Year. I got nothing to update. Nothing!!

#399

2010-02-14T20:00:00.008+08:00

Its the first day of Chinese New Year. And i wore checkered. Boyfriend told me he wore checkered top too. Couple attire.

I didn't know what to do right after i got back,so i cam whore just a little bit before taking my nap.

Two hours later, Davis called and asked if i was at home. Then he came over and sat for awhile while i was still dressing up. Then off to Phebe's cause there's no other place to go. I'm experiencing the worse New Year ever!! I'm not looking forward to any visiting,except for close friends.

Then off we went to Parkson. Yea,tell me about it. But i saw Pete's picture. Why haven't i notice it before.

Davis always remind me how fat i am and i should lose weight. T___T

I bump into Lydia. It has been 3 years since i last saw her. But she will be leaving tmr. And i don't know when will i see her again.

And i love cam whoring and that's not a crime.

#398

2010-02-11T01:34:00.010+08:00

Exam is over. I don't have to think about it for the time being. I'm just gonna stay happy till its time to study again.

Spend the whole evening with the boyfriend. Dinner then movie. Had my squid too and I'm delighted. Watched Legion.

Then we had starbucks. Java chips for me and green tea latte for the boyfriend.

We look thinner this way. Suck it all in!!

Checking out his facebook for feed backs on his status. My dickhead.

Iqbal Adam,we got double chin. Well proven. The gym is calling.

Then we had company. Phebe, Cath and Xuan. Francis,you blew us off. *pouts*

Last picture of us for the night. Spot the similarities. Don't we look like siblings? And if you think I look older,screw you! xD

#395

2010-02-03T13:03:00.008+08:00

I love you. I love me. I love us.

#394

2010-02-01T20:18:00.002+08:00

I got no pictures to upload.
I don't know why.
Sometimes I'm tired taking the same pose over and over again.
But being vain is what makes a person feels pretty.
I need pictures and i don't know what to update without them.
I suck when it comes to blogging with only words.

#393

2010-02-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

Its funny how you read people's chat box and laugh about it because you cool. And whats even better,that person think she's cool too. Kiss my ass. Its one in the morning and i'm tired. I'm not in the mood to do anything. I want to sleep but i'm lazy. I wanna go watch tv first then bounce off to candy land.

#392

2010-01-29T21:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was the longest time i ever spend with the boyfriend. I love how we are right now. I don't have to stay online and see him thru the webcam anymore and suffer the different time zone. Though i still miss it cause that's what got us strong. Those memories are locked in the box. I love having the boyfriend around. He makes me happy. He piggy backs me, he tease me, he hold me like there's no tmr. There's so much about him that makes me miss him every time he's not around. Anyways, I was suppose to study at his place throughout that 12 hours or at least a few hours,but it didn't happen. But I successfully memorize a total of 2 formulas before i start wandering off. Well,at least i got something in my head. Before i forget,i had three meals!! Breakfast with the boyfriend and Uncle Kent. Then lunch with Phebe and Aaron. And dinner at boyfriend's place with his family. It felt different. But i like. It was a good like of different. And I'm looking forward meeting them again. Soon i hope. And just so you know,my parents are taking us seriously for once. I hope they are accepting us being together and all. I know its gonna be tough,having such strict parents but we gonna go thru it together.

I got a lazy boyfriend who doesn't blog at all!

2010-01-26T20:35:00.006+08:00

I love you and you know its true.

2010-01-24T22:18:00.008+08:00

I'm so happy. He makes me feel so love and for once I'm glad i broke up with Kim two years back. I know its silly to even mention the ex's name,but if it wasn't for him,i wouldn't have learn about how cold a person can turn into. People change,i agree with that statement.

Today marks our forth months together. We are holding on really strong,everything is going on very well. I feel secure. He fill me with love that i can never imagine and I'm still loving him every single day. Baby,you touched my heart.

Baby text me two nights ago,telling me to have lunch with him in KB. And daddy being very protective would never let me leave town,even if its just for a few hours. So i thought if i bring my mum up as well,most probably i could go. So i told baby about it. He agreed,so i asked my mum. And she say she wants to do some grocery shopping there. And baby was bringing a friend too. So why not,it couldn't be that bad. I know what you guys are thinking,but seriously at the end of the day,it wasn't bad at all. Though we nearly died,cause baby fell asleep driving. Overall,it was a great date.

Baby had some kind of noodles with ice beneath it.

I had Unagi Bento.

Baby surprise me with a bouquet of roses and I'm so touched.

#390

2010-01-22T00:29:00.005+08:00

So it was baby's birthday yesterday. We didn't do much because i arrived late. I had the whole morning baking muffins for him. Its wasn't about the mixture that i had to mix,it was the baking that took such a long time. And my first muffins that i ever bake for someone. Worse of all,i didn't even get to eat any of it. So i don't know how good or bad it taste. And I think i got full just by watching it set. His aunt said it was nice,and she had five of them. I think my muffins suits old people. Cause its not so sweet and when you put your teeth in it,you can taste the melted chocolates. Mmhhmm. After i reached his place,he was rushing to meet his granddad. Though it was a short surprise and i didn't get to see him eat all the muffins,i was happy his happy. I got him a present that took me weeks to look up for the stuff. At the end of the day,i didn't get the stuff i wanted and had to go with what i have,nothing.

Every time I'm with him,i feel happy and i don't think much about other stuff. You might say that's normal because we were apart all these while. And now we are together,we can't seem to let go of each other. I don't want to be labelled 'clingy',i had this "thing" with my past,and i still don't think its true but then it still stick in my head. We been hanging out a lot lately. Even if its just a short while. I don't mind. Its not about how long you get to be with him,its the smile you see,the hug you get,and the kisses he give that counts.

#389

2010-01-18T00:15:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with the guy that calls me a banana.
I'm feeling the love.
Baby is back and we spend the whole afternoon together.
It was simple but a memorable one. I don't remember when was the last time i was this happy. But i'm gonna treasure this day because you have made my day.
And i'm glad to have you by my side now.

=)

#388

2010-01-14T16:03:00.011+08:00

We learn to appreciate instant food like M.A.G.G.I!!

I like mine dry and salty,whatever you want it to be called!!

Joan's har mee with egg.

Our burned balls.

You got that right. Balls.

Joan my flying broom girl. I got funny pictures of myself doing stuff but nah,might just show it next time

I know the eyes are closing but i kinda like the picture a lot. Stop complaining!

#387

2010-01-11T02:10:00.002+08:00

I miss Xuan!!
I'm burn your floor with that hot chili sauce.

#386

2010-01-11T01:43:00.003+08:00

I can't wait till Saturday comes. The boyfriend is coming back. And I'm so excited. I can't wait for all those dates,all the time I'm gonna have with him. I miss him even more just by mentioning about his return. I'm glad that i actually got the stuff i wanted and it took me weeks to hunt it down. In the end i had it custom made. Its worth the effort and time. More coming and more to tell.

#385

2010-01-10T04:58:00.003+08:00

No edits, nothing. You be the judge of it. I won't be as childish as you Daisy Ling. Say whatever,i got ppl looking out for me and i don't need to say more. Say I'm fat,big,tall,ugly with holes on my face. I don't care. I'm who i am. And you don't have the right to judge ppl by their appearances. I'm just saying the fact about your attitude and all you do is biatch about how i look? You can always do better than that. Btw I'm getting motivated by your all so good friends. I'm gonna prove to you,your wrong. I haven't got much appetite to start with ever since which i find it good though you might not. Like everyone say,don't let her invade my mind. I won't deny,she has. But its not entirely bad. Now i shall leave the house looking as better as always. Yay! Cheer on. And what is that you say about Curtin? Bear in mind,its not about which Uni you go to,its whether or not you can make it by your own and not depending on other ppl. Why am i bothered to explained,you don't even have the access to read this blog. Don't fuck ppl,when they don't fuck you. Keep your dick to yourself. Be polite as always. There's no point being harsh,cause that's just gonna make you look so cheap.

#384

2010-01-07T19:53:00.002+08:00

The reason why this blog is better kept private for the time being is because apparently there's someone who i don't even know cares alot about me. You don't get that everyday. =)

#381

2009-12-31T19:59:00.003+08:00

Its New Year Eve,and I'm staying at home. Happy New Year!

I'm no longer working,and it feels good thinking about not having to wake up 6 in the morning. I don't mind waking up occasionally but not everyday. I gonna miss all those people in the office. But i will be seeing them again soon unless they decide to leave before i go back.

Anyways,my class is starting next week,and I'm looking forward. Tuesday and Thursday,for one whole month. Doesn't sound that bad,despite the fact that i don't like working. I think its better for me to stick with studying till i find the passion to work. But i love the money though. I want more money,please. I know we don't get presents during new year but I'm still gonna wish for more money. Who doesn't love money,tell me!

From what everyone is saying,accountants are one of the stingiest people on this planet. I think I'm turning into one. I been counting how much i should spend every day on stuff. I been thinking too much about money. Maybe i got financial problem. I want to get everything but i don't have enough to get it all. Everything i want has turned into my needs. And having plans for next month,tighten my tummy up more. I did thought about starving just to save up,but i love food. So starving is out of the list. Since I'm not gonna be working till June,I won't be having much money to spend,as if i got enough money to spend all these while. I haven't shop for any cloths for the new year. I'm hunting for summer dresses and tees. I need them! And Miri is such a pain,you can't get what you want. And even if you do,the price are just not as cheap as KL. *big sigh*

Before i forget,I'm 15 days away. I'm feeling the love.

#380

2009-12-28T02:25:00.002+08:00

I just lost you.

#379

2009-12-25T23:35:00.004+08:00

Its Christmas!
Went over to Hazel's place for Christmas visiting. And Davis is back too!

I'm not in the mood to put in any other details. I'm tired and I need my sleep.

#377

2009-12-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

I love my new lens. =)

#376

2009-12-21T21:34:00.008+08:00

Next week would be my last week with all those nice people. Though i just got a month to know them,they are great colleagues. They make me laugh and at the same time,they laugh at me too.

Ever since i change table,my working life has been a lot better. I get to know each one of them,i got close with them too. I'm gonna miss all the girls. But I'm not gonna miss the work i had to do.

Thats about the number of staff.

Kathy.

The girls out numbered the guys.

#375

2009-12-18T18:26:00.008+08:00

Dinner at Coco's and drinking session after that. Coco's a really good place to dine especially for couples. Where its quiet and time is all yours.

Me heart them both.

And i love polka dots!

#374

2009-12-16T20:37:00.004+08:00

9 more days and I'm no longer working. 9 more days till Christmas comes. 15 more days to another year. And 15 more days that marks our 100th days.

Time is running short. I done nothing productive on myself. I haven't lose any weight. Sadly, I look rather the same and that's not how i picture myself in the end of the year. I'm suppose to lose at least 3 kgs! I have always tried to be as perfect as much as i have always wanted to be,but it never happen. A failure is what its called. People have learned to accept me for me and not being someone else but i can't say that i accept myself for who i am right now. With strong determination and time, i know i can be a different person, a better person maybe. But without that courage to pull me up, I'm just gonna be the same girl everyone know. I don't know if being different would change anything. I don't know how my life would be by then. Whether or not I'll still be having the same group of friends or being with the same guy. God knows where will i end up. There's so much and no one can answer any of them.

A girl will always dream of waking up as a princess. A fairy tale with pleasant colours to see everywhere. But when reality hits hard on the face, you have no choice but to stand up and carry on whats there in life, whats there for me and you. Life stinks, but that's how life is. I'm still gonna try to change myself. If i still can't, I'm just gonna give up and live my life as how it is. I guess that's fair enough.

#373

2009-12-15T18:19:00.005+08:00

I love skinny jeans and all of mine are my favorite.

My dearest Xuan.

#372

2009-12-14T09:33:00.004+08:00

I love what happened that night. Something different, definitely something special and unforgettable. It has never been about the age,nor the race,or the background but the feeling we shared between each other. Thinking back puts a smile on my tired face and i still think its worth remembering it. Its funny yet fun and naughty but we did spend time with each other. And i love those moment with you,when i have your full attention. We might be cheeky but those cheeky times will be our precious times together,only us have the key to that lock. I'll love you like no other and that's from the bottom of my heart,cross heart.

I'm sleepy. =)

I'll always be there right by your side

2009-12-12T22:54:00.005+08:00

There are times when things just go all so wrong. But deep down,no matter which way you turned,you got me right by your side guiding you the way-being your shining star,your shining angel. I'll never look down on you. I will not let you look down on yourself as well. I'm proud of you even from the beginning. I'm happy to have chosen you. Its not easy but I will do all means to make you smile again. I love you. I heart you. I miss you. Be that smiling bear of mine again. Your strong and nothing will pull you down unless it pulls me down along too. I'll always be there for you. Even we're at a different place and with difference time zone.

#370

2009-12-10T19:59:00.003+08:00

I love myself. And that should be the way. I love cam-whoring and if you got a problem with that,you just got to live with it. If you're bored with the same post,don't complain cause i won't listen.

I hate what I'm feeling these days. I feel so un-wanted. No one wants me. Even when you say you do and i know you do,part of me still feel un-wanted. I don't like it. It makes me sad and I'm holding back my tears. I'm being such a baby.

I counted and I'm left with 13 days of work. And the sad thing is I'm going back to work for another month in February right after summer course. I want February to be really special,when there's only you and me. I want to spend all those time right by your side. 'I want, I must and I need.'

T.H.R.E.E H.O.U.R.S.!!

2009-12-09T21:30:00.001+08:00

IT SUCKS WAITING.

#368

2009-12-09T19:57:00.004+08:00

Gonna make this post short.

Girls night out.

Parkson.

Starbucks.

Bumped into Hazel and Cyndy.

Hazel working at Starbucks.

Sarah wasn't on duty.
Had Java Chips. *hearts*

Went to sit outside.
Wasn't photogenic,so no other pictures of me.

Went home at ten.

D.O.N.E =)

#367

2009-12-09T18:27:00.003+08:00

Results just released. And I'm happy to say i passed all. A harder semester ahead means more pressure. Will be taking summer so my happiness will be ending soon. Friends told me Finance is tough,and being one of the not-so-bright students,I'm worried. I don't want to be a disappointment to anyone. Daddy said I'm not stupid,all i have to do is word harder. Like that will help. Sometimes its not about whether or not you worked hard enough. There are times when i worked really hard but i don't get what i want in the end. Its more to how you are gonna understand it. That's not what I'm strong at.

#366

2009-12-08T11:00:00.005+08:00

I will be blogging more often to keep everyone updated though there isn't much. Despite the fact that I'll be losing my freedom to go online during office hour starting tomorrow this includes my table and not-so-clean chair. A new secretary is coming in. I was told I'm gonna be trying out at the Auditors' table or something like that. Sounds tougher and probably even better. And I don't know how am i gonna survive. Internet is what's been keeping me awake and alive. I need a pc, pronto.

I'm starting to get along with all the colleagues here except for this guy. He doesn't talk at all and he doesn't smile nor greet people. Or maybe because the office has more ladies and he feels out of space. Other than him,I'm talking more and more around here. I'm a chatter and always will be. The girls are slightly older than me,so we get along quite well talking about guys,cloths,food,and what so ever that crosses our mind. The boss are treating me well too. There will only be alot of work to do when he is around,other wise I'm free. And because I'm sharing pc with the boss,sometimes its hard to chat. Always making sure the boss is not any where near. It would suck big time if i ever get caught.

Working life is about the same every day. You don't look forward to work but you look forward to head home.

#365

2009-12-07T18:09:00.003+08:00

Ever since i started with my job,I haven't got the time to snap pictures of my outfit. So this is what i have to wear most of the time. I used to be fond of formal cloths,but I'm tired of it now. I'm gonna wear semi formal from now on!

Ending this post with a close up photo. Cheers~

#364

2009-12-07T15:54:00.000+08:00

I feel so un-needed. I feel un-wanted. I feel so hopeless.